Me Time?…No,…Jesus Time

10/2017 — Ministry

I remem­ber a ser­mon I head recent­ly where it chal­lenged us, as the audi­ence to make time to do things God is call­ing us to do. As I am hear­ing it, I am agree­ing, nod­ding, etc., until he says some­thing that shook my spir­it, for us to make time, we will not be cut­ting into time at work, with the fam­i­ly, clean­ing or oth­er respon­si­bil­i­ties, it’s going to be the “me time”. “Uh-Oh”, I real­ize. I have come to depend on my me time. When lit­tles are in bed, I look for­ward to “veg­ging”, what does that mean any­way? I am typ­ing this entry from my writ­ten “blog” and I am look­ing clos­er into this word, which I believe refers to being like a veg­etable. Why would any­one choose to live like that for any amount of time? 

What would things look like if I lived more inten­tion­al­ly and more pur­pose­ful­ly? (see here for begin­ning your own Extra­or­di­nary jour­ney) What more would I do or accom­plish in this world? Once The Spir­it had shown me this I ask for for­give­ness. There is no such thing as “my time” we are to be gen­er­ous with all things, remem­ber­ing that any­thing we “have” is giv­en to us by grace and not real­ly belong­ing to us, but on loan from our Heav­en­ly Father. If I am fol­low­ing after Jesus, we are stew­ards of His glo­ri­ous bless­ings, which is pret­ty awe­some! God has a way of soft­en­ing us so that, should we walk in obe­di­ence, He leas us to some­place new and greater and with more responsibility. 

For me it was MOPs. I was not famil­iar with this orga­ni­za­tion pri­or and once I heard MOPs and Mon­day night in the same sen­tence, my brain threw a red flag on the play. I didn’t look into it any fur­ther. I was very guard­ed with my time, espe­cial­ly after hav­ing chil­dren. Every­thing has to hap­pen just so and if it didn’t, it real­ly made things dif­fi­cult for me. So, I hid behind “my time”. God couldn’t stretch me if I hid in this space. God has shown me, as  I write this that I was putting “my time” before “His time” & even now he is teach­ing me that I often put “my tim­ing” before “His per­fect timing.

So here I am feel­ing com­pelled to get more involved in min­istry while I have lit­tles, 3,4 and 5 months at the time. This would not have been some­thing I came up with on my own and to be com­plete­ly trans­par­ent, I tend­ed towards an out­side orbit when it came to my involve­ment in church. I real­ly want­ed to steer clear of any church pol­i­tics, so lead­ing a group would have been way off my radar. But God had dif­fer­ent plans.

Of course He did…